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Runaway Bus?
4. August 2009 by Lindy.
It was a rough weekend. Friday the muscle and joint pain began. Saturday I felt like I was hit by a bus. The pain was nearly unbearable. It seemed to localize in my knees and legs. Sunday was slightly better and Monday was back to a dull ache.
Just when I thought I was getting better, I woke up today feeling like a bus hit me again. It’s very discouraging. Everything hurts - muscles, joints, bones. My knees and elbows feel like I’m being stabbed with a knife. I’m extremely tired.
Some days, when I allow myself to think too much, I get very overwhelmed. The road ahead is still so long. I wish all I had to do was complete chemo and be back to normal by the end of the summer. Instead I have to complete chemo, have a major surgery, go through 6-8 weeks of radiation and then another major reconstructive surgery. This won’t be over until winter. It seems so far away.
When I think about what we’ve been through over the past year and now the cancer, I just don’t understand why this happened to us. I didn’t plan for Brooklyn to spend her 5th year of life with a mom who is sick and can’t do the things we would like to do together. I didn’t plan on watching other excellent care givers help raise Max and Samantha during their first year of life. The toll this is taking on my family is staggering. What I know for sure is that God will see us through this. This definitely was not what we planned, but His plan is perfect. We have to trust in that.
I was able to tune into the webcast of Sunday morning’s church service. The message was awesome. So much of it spoke directly to me. Included in some great verses, my Jeremiah verse was shared again too. Awesome.
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. Jeremiah 29:11-13
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